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10 Day ‘You’ Challenge – Day 5
1I am midway completing this challenge, and it feels good. It does. Day 5 is gonna be easy. Hmm. Let me guess..
Day 6 – six places
I don’t know where to begin with. There are a number of places I want to go. As a child, I would dream and make plans on visiting them someday. Some of them included family, others were with friends and dates. Hmm, okay, I didn’t say that. No, I didn’t.
1. I want to go to Mumbai
City of my dreams - Mumbai
It’s not much of a secret. I wanted to go to Mumbai ever since I was a kid. They have a different living style over there – the thought that always fascinated me. Grant my one wish of visiting any place on earth, and it will be Mumbai!
2. I want to go to Manhattan, New York
The most beautiful city on earth - Manhattan, New York
The most beautiful city on earth I would say. I really wanna be there once and it must snow then!
3. I want to go to Phuket, Thailand
Peace and serenity - Phuket, Thailand
I had always wanted to go to a beach. No, not with a date. This small island on the coast of Thailand, will be THE one! 
4. I want to go to Cape Town
Beautiful - ain't she? - Cape Town
No, Africa ain’t just deserts and camels. It has this place I would love to visit at least once in my lifetime.
5. I want to go to The Iguazu Waterfalls
Heralded most beautiful of all waterfalls - The Iguazu Falls
The most beautiful of all the waterfalls on earth. Don’t believe? Google it or watch it on Youtube.
6. I want to go to Dubai
The structural bonanza - Dubai
Dubai, I guess should be a dream place for every Civil Engineer. It’s got so many structural inspirations.. I can spend my entire life over there and not get bored of that place.
10 Day ‘You’ Challenge – Day 4
4This seems like my favorite topic, and I am gonna make it quick. No, that’s not because I don’t have many wants. Okay, I will mail you my entire want-list in private someday provided you promise to get me at least 10% of those! O yeah!
Day 4 – seven wants
Some people want everything. Others want lesser things. Few of them want nothing. I am not sure which category I fall in, but I ‘want’ stuff, and that ‘stuff’ that I want… I want ‘em like a beast!
1. I want to have a super power; yes, a special power! Like Superman, right! But I want a different super power. One even Superman didn’t have. I want to be the master of space and time. Just like Hiro Nakamuro, in HEROES. There are a lot of things I wanna change with my past, and I don’t give a damn about butterfly effects that may follow! I just want to do that!
2. I want a good wardrobe; there are lots of books and clothes I got that are no where to be placed. But I think I can do without it for another few years, I don’t really NEED it.. but I want it!
3. I want to design and decorate my own house; I do, and perhaps the whole locality I live in. I want things to be my way, to be in my reach when I need them. A socket here, a ventilator there. I want everything to be exactly the way I am comfortable with. And oh, I am already designing the home I’ll live in someday in my head. No, you don’t even get to choose which color curtains to put in my room! Grr..
4. I want a huge LCD screen on the wall in my loo; Why? I get bored! =/
5. I want a Pokémon; a real one, and a pokéball as well. Umm, Jirachi would do.. or even Torchic. Yeah, I like baby pokémon. Dratini?
6. I want to write script for an Indian TV show; they really need fresh pair of eyes and a new perspective to start with. Enough of Saas-Bahu dramas. Cartoons on CN suck big deal these days and I am left with absolutely nothing to watch!
7. I want to go back to being 14 and stay that way for the rest of my life; No, I am not telling why I want that. It’s no ‘secrets‘ thread!
10 Day ‘You’ Challenge – Day 3
5I was working on blog today and had been making some changes. Yes, after a long time. Some of them you might have already noticed, others you will get to know with time. Few of them, however, you might never notice. One of those changes would be that I have been cleaning it’s code for hours now and you can feel it’s result by the amount of time it takes for pages to load. Yup, they now load 80% faster. No, I am not kidding man. Ah, yes, I was trying to avoid what I really HAVE to write.
Day 3 – eight fears
Who likes talking about their fears? Or thinking about them for that matter? I don’t. And I am definitely not an exception with that one! As much as I know how I am gonna regret starting to write this one, there are friends who have been wanting to read this since my last post. I am talking about you, yes! Stop pestering me on IMs. Cool, now you are dancing! BAH!
1. I fear letting down my family; They have expectations, most of which I have failed to match with in my recent past. That makes it worse. In everything I do, I want to do.. that fear persists. You may say I am being highly conscious, I will say I am just making sure I don’t knowingly (or unknowingly), do something that would hurt them.
2. I fear losing the people I love; Now when I say that I don’t actually mean losing them, I get uneasy when they spend more time with other people than they do with me. I behave and act in a highly possessive manner and that gets them irritated, most of them. I know I will lose one of them one day for that thing I do. I like being pampered. I like being with them. And I like letting them know that I will love them more than anyone will ever do. I know it’s not good at my part, but I am honest when I say that I love to be the reason they smile, the reason for their laugh and their joy. Anyone else does that, I feel terrible.. and lonely. But I am trying, trying not to be that person anymore.
3. I fear forgetting the real me; Lately there’s been a lot of stuff I added to my ‘now-working-on’ list and surprisingly I have been working on them in actual. Now it turns out (as other’s say), I have started drifting away from people I have been close to. People who care for me.. who love me. I do assure them of being the same person I was years ago, but I know I haven’t been the same really. But that’s that, I am still the person who loves them and wants to be with them. I just believe it’s high time I start working on the dreams I built with them over the years.
4. I fear dying before I achieve my goals; People will tell me to be optimistic and think positive, I know. But I can not ‘not-fear’ this aspect of my life. I have no idea when or where my life comes to it’s end and everything I did to achieve my dreams and goals turns zero and equals to null. That doesn’t affect my work however. I will always give each work of mine the sweet time it requires. Also, I have certain fantasies in my bucket list that I would love to live, at least once during my life.
5. I fear people who know me less over complete strangers; In fact I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know, people who don’t know me good enough. This is because, chances are I’ll never see them again. And I can say things I want to say, keep the things I don’t wanna say. They aren’t going to pester me to ‘tell them the whole thing’. They can only judge me on the basis of what I am, then and there. On the other hand, people around, who care shit about me and what I do, are the ones I fear. For they are gonna say anything, and just about ANYTHING that crosses their sick minds to people I love. People who love me. They hurt them. I hate them!
6. I fear losing my phone; and I mean, any phone that I have. It is one way I connect with many people. People, who are an important part of my life. People, without talking to whom my day is obsolete and incomplete.
7. I fear I don’t have a stomach inside me; I am not kidding! Seriously! I eat a lot.. like A LOT! And it still doesn’t reflect anywhere on my body. So at times I fear my food pipe’s directly connected to my intestines and everything I take in, gets out as it is =/
8. I fear my laptop will explode someday; It has already started giving me signals.. alarming temperatures, ‘fcuked up‘ Windows notifications and shutting down abruptly every now and then. I need a new laptop already!
10 Day ‘You’ Challenge – Day 2
8O yes, o yes, I are here. I know half of them must have bet I wouldn’t come back, and rest of them.. well, they have a life and better stuff to do. Let’s get started.
Day 2 – nine loves
First of all, for people who think this post is gonna be all about my crushes and relationships and family.. I hate to break the bubble, there’s not much of that. I know, the minute most people hear the word ‘Love’ they go gaga thinking about their crushes, about those moments they think they fell for that someone at those first glances; The latest ring or dress their boyfriend got them, their childhood ‘best’ pals and few of them will even say they are in ‘love’ with their favorite movie stars. My take? You have gone brainsick at some point in your life, if you think you are one of the latter! Yes, we do love people, we even ‘fall in love’ with them, more than once sometimes. But I feel love is not just about that. About loving people. You love yourself. You even ‘love’ things that you do. You ‘love’ music.. some selected genre or artist maybe. You ‘love’ them. And I say that because they help you with self-realization. They help you connect with yourself. They please you. Those ‘loves’ make every breath of yours count, and they make your life worth living for.
1. 
my sister; I know I haven’t been a good brother in years, but I am making up for that. I really am. For it’s always her smile, that gets me smiling; Her laugh, that makes me happy; Her love, that peps up my life and makes me wanna go achieve all my dreams in life.
2. my Mumma; and that’s not because she gave me birth, but because she has always paved the path for me to become the person of my dreams.. OUR dreams. And she might not be with me at times, but I know it’s just because she wants me to stand on my two feet and be the man, responsible for his own stuff.
3. my family; for bearing with all my wrongs and cherishing with me all those joyous moments of my life. Among them, I always feel safe, and loved, of course. Just knowing that one of them will always be with me every time I need someone, makes me happy and satisfied with everything I do.
4. the people close to my heart; and when I say that, I know that they know that I am talking about them. I keep saying it to them. We share(d) moments that for sure will be treasured until eternity, if not cherished all of them. In fact, I end my conversations with most of them with a ‘I love you’.
5. my sleep; I do. I find answers to most of my life’s mysteries (read ‘miseries’) when I am asleep. Though many of those answers are gone when I wake up but I like to know I had them once. And that one thought suffices enough to get me through any long, tiring day that follows.
6. the sky; I can keep looking at it for hours and not get bored of doing that. It soothes my eyes. However, I never exactly know what they are keeping looking for out there. No, definitely not aliens! Also it calms my soul and gives me peace.. the night sky, for most of it.
7. soft music; It lets me walk in and out of my world whenever I want to, whenever I need to. All I have to do is put on my earplugs, close my eyes and lie down on bed and I will forget all my fears and anxieties for the next hour or so.
8. writing; I know you must be thinking I can’t really claim to do that because I haven’t been writing for a while, but it’s just that I feel comfortable penning down my feelings. I believe it’s more effective an influence and lasts longer.
9. my mobile; There! I said it! And I mean it! It helps me connect with the people I love and those who are at far away places. My mobile and I share memories, most of which are really worth savoring. I never delete any of my messages. I always have a backup log.
Those right above, are my nine loves. See you tomorrow.
10 Day You Challenge – Day 1
19Yes, I haven’t written anything in a while. I am sorry. No, I wasn’t fooling around. Yes, fine, I am a total jerk!
Honestly, I am not confident if this challenge will keep me writing stuff for ten straight days. 10 days is a lot of time. Also considering I have never written anything unless I really wanted to, I fear it’s going to end up with me giving up on it, or acting negligent, OR, I may even shut down my blog and hide somewhere for I don’t like to lose. That was absurd, I know, and totally random, yes. But I need this. I do realize now what my life has been missing for not writing the things that are required to be done. So I need to force myself into writing. And this challenge seems just the right thing for the moment.
Day 1 – ten secrets
Oh man, I am so gonna regret this! WTH was he THINKING? The person who came up with this challenge? 10 SECRETS! Bah!
1. You suck! No? OK, fine. I am completely dishonest at times. That’s something I do when I don’t feel safe telling the truth. And as much as I hate to say that but it happens more often with people in my real life than those online. No, not with the people close to my heart. I can’t lie to them. They’ll know when I do.
2. I don’t like family functions. Not that I hate them, I just think I got better stuff to do. Scooby Doo? WTH am I supposed to do among people who are 20 years older than me and talk stuff like business deals, stocks & shares and increasing expenses by their children. Duh-huh, I am not gonna start spending less just because you pick up that topic every time you walk into me.
3. I don’t like people waking me up in the morning. You do that, you make yourself worthy of my wrath. It’s as simple as that.
4. It’s been years since I have had a best friend. I have good friends. Ones I am really close with. But I miss something of some sort, something I had in my relations few years ago. Few of them will disagree with that, but I know it’s true. And that feeling of emptiness, of not having that ‘something’, someone, endures in my mind for most part.
5. There are things I might not react to at first. I will act as if they don’t matter to me, but the truth is, they do. When people ask me if I am happy with my college, I tell them yes, I couldn’t have been happier. Reality, I hate myself for not working harder in those two years and for not getting the college I promised one of my best friends back then.
6. I am pretty over-possessive when it comes to the people I love. And that feeling amplifies with time. I start judging and interpreting every single thing that happens to them. Everything they say and do, collects in my mind, which keeps processing those thoughts all day long. I can’t help not caring. I act protective, and don’t want them to get hurt. Most of the times, however, not letting anyone else hurt them, I end up hurting them myself.
7. Personally, I can’t stand people who keep whining… for attention most of them. Rest are useless chumps. Everyone deals with unexpected things in life. I don’t post facebook statuses to garner “Awww. I am sorry”s or tweets screaming for attention. The closest I ever get is angsty updates that either get deleted within hours or turn into good conversations. Also I ‘secretly’ pity people who try to be what they are not. They amuse me, really do. Honestly, I would like to know what makes them think that if they are not happy with the way they are, they will be happier being someone else. A copy, will always remain a copy. An original, will always be an original (#TalksLikeTVD). You try being what you are not, you will as well lose the only real identity you have.
8. I’m not a non-believer of God. I say I am but I am not. I just hate Him. ‘Hate’ is a strong word I know. And I hate Him. I have my reasons. And no, I don’t pray. I just leave Him messages before I sleep, telling Him how much I hate him for everything He has put me through. I don’t blame Him for the mistakes I commit. I just blame Him for the things He is responsible for in my life. It’s because people say it is Him who is responsible for them and that things like those can’t happen without His consent. So I am being my natural self holding a grudge against Him.
9. I don’t know if this is the inner child in me wanting to be different and unique, but my last name has always kind of bugged me. I never use my full name anywhere, unless it is mandatory. I think it’s too much of a common name – and that coming from someone named Supriya!
10. I am super-duper lazy. Yeah, that’s not much of a secret but you know… I am getting lazy to think of my secret no. 10 right now, so I guess I will just pass. No? Oh come’on! You know there is no limits to my laziness. I am so lazy I won’t even run if my a$$ was on fire. Ha, but I guess neither would you! Wouldn’t you just sit and rub it off the ground? 
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